Mix Feelings

Lately, I am supposed to be busy preparing for my exams. But that is not what i am doing. Suddenly, there are so many things in my head which is distracting me. Am I thinking too much or are these problem really there? Here I am, sitting by the window along with my laptop, trying to re-evaluate myself. What have I achieved? The answer is that simple... NOTHING. I have come this far and realise I have nothing in my hands. Nothing within my grasps. I am beginning to worried. I needed someone to pour these to, but when I have someone with me, I just would not pour it out. Sometimes I just wish I have a genie. I will just wish for the things I want, and there I will have it within a few seconds. But could I really work with a genie? I will be heading home in a few months time and yet I do not want to leave. I want to be here, somehow. Gazing at the sky, hoping I would get a solution to all my frustrations right now.

Chapters of My Life

Here I am, sitting right in front of the computer at 7.15am even though the sun has yet to rise. It is reported that the sun will rise at 8.06am and that is how long I have set to sit right in front of this computer to blog. Moving to Bristol seems to be full of excitement and anticipation. I love surprises. I look forward to everyday, to have my own mini adventures to fill the chapters of my life.

For the last 3 weeks, I have messed up my sleeping hours. Sleeping only when the sun rises, and waking up when the sun sets. It all started with exams. Yes, it is an excuse one would always give. Everything will start with last minute studying and subsequently sleeping late and waking up even later becomes a routine. I got to stop that! Today is no different than any other day. I slept at 3am and automatically awakes at 7am. I hope I would sleep earlier next time, and get a healthier lifestyle.

As the days pass by, I started thinking what have I added into the chapters of my life. Sure that there are ups and downs. I am having a great time here, be it, with new or old friends. I had people misunderstanding me, and I made sure I set things right. Similarly, I have people who give me uncomfortable feeling, yet I am hoping not to be so bias in my judgment. These little things which add up to form the stories in my life.... but what have I achieved as a person? That would be the next chapter of my life.

My Energy Pack

How sweet can a person be!!! This is my 'energy pack' from Min Yii...

A MINI TENAGA NASIONAL!

Bright Day

It only takes one little thing to brighten your day. This is so true!!! Having felt so lifeless for the past one week is one of the worst thing which happened to me. I was feeling tired almost everyday, not wanting to leave my bed. Besides, I was feeling neither happy nor sad. Yes, totally felt like a zombie. I wonder what happened to me. None of my friends could tell too.

Currently, I am looking forward for my holidays. I need a break. Yet, I do not want time to pass so fast. I still have my assignments to do, one due on the 10th and the other on the 15th. On top of that, there will be an exam for my EU law. How great! What is worst is that my family law assignment requires a 5,000 words essay whereas others require 2,000 words. I need more time! I need to learn how to make use of my time WISELY. Since, I could say such thing, it proves that I am not wise enough because I am not making use of my time wisely.

Being here for about 2-2.5months is just great except for the change of weather. It is getting colder each day, and the temperature is only a single digit. The bright side of it, at least I get to experience the cold weather unlike in KL. I am looking forward for snow right now! Life is so different without my family around. I miss everybody in KL... Thanks Didi, for you card and statute book though I have not received it. I miss the seafood and sushi. Life is so incomplete without sushi... I can't even enjoy sushi over here due to the price. The whole difference with the ones in KL is their dollar sign. Paying for one plate of sushi here is equivalent to paying for 6 plates of sushi at home. Sobs. Therefore, I have decided to learn how to make sushi on my own!

There was this one day, when I accompanied one of my friend to get his phone, I happened to see this little boy who was playing with the display phones. Somehow, he approached me to ask me to play along with him. I adore the innocence of young children. They only know how to be happy and just cry when they feel sad. How I wish life is that easy. The little boy even asked me to carry him and did not want to go back with his mum. He really made my day. Probably I am just too simple, a small little thing could make my day easily. Today, what made my day was a mere wave to say goodbye along with a smile. I've waited long enough for that smile to appear.

Updates from Bristol

It has been a month and a half since I have arrived in Bristol, United Kingdom. Dad and bro came with me for a week. It was a hard time for mum, considering I have not left home to a place so far before. Dad totally made sure that I have everything before he actually left for home. As much as I didn't want him to leave, I still have to face the fact. I totally enjoyed the week they were here. Somebody I know, somebody I am close to.

Bristol, so far has been a very nice city for me. Love here a lot, especially the weather!!! No doubt it is cold on certain days, I still love it. I settled down real quick, quicker than what I expected. I still feel like home, considering Mum will msn with me every single day... And Didi will message me every single day. Met so many new friends here. Each from different country, different personality. I managed to get to know this friend, Min Yii, now my dear!!! She is such a wonderful friend. She is there for me whenever I go bizzare. Got to admit, I did a lot of psycho things, things which I will never do, when I am with her. The greatest thing is she knows my dark secrets... Likewise, I know hers. It has been an enjoyable moment with her around. God knows what will happen to me if I had not met her. haha. Probably a loner?

Right now, I am waiting for her to "cure" me... It is so frustrating!!!

Renovation

This blog is under "renovation". I promise I will upload as soon as pictures are available! Hopefully by next week.

Girls, I miss you!!!!

What Say You?

I can't tell what went wrong due to some reasons. Neither could you. How about putting all those behind and have a fresh start? I am trying to...

I'm BACK!

I'm back!!! There are reasons why i abandoned this site for such a longgggggggggg time. Needless to say, study study study. It is a never ending thing, so I guess it is no longer a valid excuse? Some people may know the actual reason for my disappearance. Oh well, thought about it for a long time and realise, this is my site. I have the right to express what I want to.

One thing I dislike is, the things I wrote are subjected to someone's speculations. For goodness sake, if you think I am wrong to say something, you can tell me. If I actually write about someone, that person should know their identity. I do not need a broadcaster. If I want, I could subscribe to CNN myself.

Not long ago, I lost something I used to treasure a lot. Some people could sense the anger and the disappointment in me. But nothing could be done. Now i truly understand the meaning of "Never judge a book by its cover". That incident really got me thinking, what went wrong? Nobody will know unless both parties speak up. Will that happen? For now, I am certain it is a sure no. In future, there is a possibility for things to be clarified. By then, we may realise how silly we were. But who is to know? Up to now, I may be silent about it in front of everybody but deep down, I am still upset. I do not like things to be left ambiguously. I need answers. When will I get them? Some may say it is no longer worth it to obtain the answers because things will never change. It is true, but I want things to change. We can make a difference! If you want it to change, the decision is in your hands. But what WE think is the most important? Do we want a change? Are we happy with the situation we are in right now? All I can say is, "It takes two to tango".

Against Me

How great!!! Everything is against me right now. First my bag went against me when the skin started peeling off here and there. Besides that, the handle is on the verge of breaking. Next, the shoes! My shoes from vincci is starting to spoil. The things I got from this particular shops tends to spoil faster than anyone could ever imagine. No more buying from there!!! I wonder what else could go wrong? Am I not in a horrible situation already???

Despair

As day goes by, I found more and more things which I should not have known. Why must it happen? My hypothesis is not suppose to come true. I wish I was wrong... If there are something which should be mentioned, say it. Say it to ME... Do not drag others in, face it. Let me know where you think I went wrong. We should sort it out instead of bringing more people into the picture. It only makes thing worst. There are things where you do not know but note this, I am trying to work things out. It is not easy for me due to your perceptions... It just proves that regardless how hard I try, you choose to think the way you want to. Not only you are uncomfortable, I am uncomfortable too. You have placed me in a very difficult position, but I am not blaming you.

SPEECHLESS!

Who are you to call me useless??? ARGHHHH!!!

"040908" Cheryl's Pre-Birthday Celebration

Dear Cheryl,

"I know I owe you this for 5days long. HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!! Another year older. I wish you all the best, dreams come true and be happy always!!! On the behalf of the others, Happy 20th Birthday."

So this year celebration is different from the other celebrations we used to have. Why is that so? Firstly, half of the gang were not present. Secondly, it is the first time we have buffet together. Now all of you in our gang should know how little time we spend with each other. And shall we have different venues to meet then???

Anyway, Aidi and I reached 30minutes earlier than the time all of us agreed. So both of us went window shopping while waiting for Cheryl. Aidi and I tried so many types of clothes. By the way, Aidi if you are reading this, I like that tube dress a lot!!! Do not just say "buy lahh" when you know I cannot afford it right now. Saving money for other priorities. But you cannot deny it looks nice horr... How How??? I want discounts!!!

After meeting up with Cheryl, three of us walked over to the restaurant. But there is something pretty weird about the place. Well, I called a day before and they told me no reservations could be made. On the day itself, they asked "Any reservations made?" How come so contradicting??? Weird!!! So three of us started attacking the food after settling down. The first thing we grabbed was the sushi. Aidi and her salmon. Cheryl and I were crazy over oysters. I managed to get some escargots too for everyone. Next, we went over to get sharkfins soup! Thank goodness they did not let us down that day. Thumbs up for the soup.


Sharkfins soup.

Obviously, here comes the oysters too

Oysters

Cheryl herself ate 4! As for me, about there la. Hahaha. I cannot really remember how many did Aidi eat though. Sorry,ya! So since Cheryl is so obsessed with oysters, I decided to ask her to allow me take a photo of her posing with her oyster.

Cheryl eating oyster

She claimed that she open her mouth so wide until her mouth cramped. Haha... So exaggerating!!! Panda, too bad we did not find any pearl in it. But the day did not end just like that. Before leaving, something very interesting happened!!! One of us, who did not want to reveal herself here, wanted to go toilet after eating coz we drank a lot of Peach tea. She opened the toilet door while the rest of us were behind her. Then, we heard her saying "Eh did I enter the wrong toilet arr?" And one of us said "Correct lahhh". All of us must be wondering why she said that. Well, it is because she saw this person wearing office clothing, exactly like a guy! No doubt the rest were shocked too. Muahaha, it is so embarassing. To this one-of-us, I did what I promised. I did not reveal your identity here. Hahaha. We then decided to go Sg Wang to shop but were distracted when in Pavilion. Too attracted with all the nice nice facial stuff until we did not realised that it started to rain.

So, my plans were ruined! I wanted to shop for a bag before class starts. In the end, we walked around in Pavilion. Had such a wonderful time in Forever 21. Cheryl and Aidi, you both look great in those dresses. And I love both of the black shirt and dress I tried. Such a nice halter and tube dress!!! But too expensive!!! Aidi, I can still remember your "banana" clothing. Can we have another outing just like that? I totally enjoy that moment. Peaceful and fun. That is indeed what I need right now. Oops before I forget, thanks a lot to Chen for fetching Aidi and I to the nearest bus stop when it was raining. Can't believe class will be starting next week. 4months of holidays ended just like that. Can I have another 4months of holidays?

Last but not least, a group photo!!!

Oh well, now I know another part of you. Another story to be explored. How interesting this could be. I never thought you are that type of person. Thanks for proving me wrong. Yes, I am done being disappointed. Go on wearing the pretty mask that you have. All I can say is, it is a beautiful illusion~

May You Rest In Peace, Anita

Few days ago I was thinking how I should begin with this entry. As usual, there were so much things to say but none was mentioned.

Last Sunday, I received a devastating message from a friend. I went to the "Perfect for Livin' " Expo in KL Convention Centre. Personally, I felt that these trips to the Convention Centre would actually be boring becaus there were nothing for me to see over there. To be precise, totally nothing for me to shop. However, my views changed when I went there. I was pretty fascinated when I stepped into Hall 1 of the Convention Centre itself. Basically, I learned a lot of new things that day. I remembered texting my friend, telling him how fascinated I was and I was pretty surprised that things did not turn out the way I thought it would be. After that trip, I could say I have an idea how I would want my future house to be.

While listening to one of the salesperson explaining something to me, I received a message from Kit Mun. I was totally in shocked when I read the message. It started of with, "Our dear friend, Anita Mary passed away due to skin disease. The funeral is today at...". Honestly, who would expect to receive such a message? It is totally a devastating one. I remembered shouting "Oh my God" in the middle of the discussion with the salesperson. Everybody was amazed. Dad asked me what happened and I told him. I even forwarded the message to Poi Phoon and Jo-Ey. All of us were just so shocked and beginning asking each other whether anyone of us will attend the funeral.

All this while, I have heard stories of Anita being in the hospital. I heard that she did not manage to proceed with Form 6 at all. I knew that she had skin disease which caused her to be weak and could not get out of bed. Then I even heard that there was this day where she actually did go home but was admitted to the hospital the following day. I remembered telling Jo-Ey how pitiful Anita was. I wanted to visit her, but nobody would accompany me. And I totally regretted for not visiting her at all. I could not even see her for the last time. After that day, her image was all over in my mind. I remembered how I used to joke around with her back when we were in Form 5. I told her, I have this Indian guy friend whom I thought of introducing to her. It was for fun! Eventually, I did not do that but my guy friend told me that he got to meet her during an interview for scholarship. Accordingly, she told him my plan of introducing both of them. I was pretty embarassed at that moment even though I was joking.

Well, I just did not expect that a friend of mine could leave this world so soon. Being only 20, she did not manage to see the world yet. There are so many things out there to explore. She did not have the chance to do so. There are so many things to be achieved, so many things not done, not even working. We all said that God took her back too soon. I was and still am feeling sick therefore I did not attend her funeral.

See Wan called me last night to tell me that she did not manage to donate some money to Anita's family. I asked her how did the funeral go. She told me Anita's mum cried badly. It is totally understandable. Who would not? Then See Wan told me that the priest said he once visited Anita in the hospital and Anita told him that she was suffering. When I heard See Wan saying that, I was imagining how suffering Anita was. It totally freaks me. I was scared at that moment. Then I said, at least this could end Anita's suffering. Anita was tough enough, battling with her disease for more than 2years.

My friends told me, this incident shows that we have not seen the world yet. We have not experience so many things yet. This comprises going overseas, vacations, working, and having boyfriends. Then I was told that they now begin to think of having boyfriends. My friend then asked me whether this incident has influenced me in getting a boyfriend sooner. I gave no reply at all. Well, if my friend wants an answer, here it goes:

No, it did not influence me in thinking to get a boyfriend soon. I am not saying that you are desperate. It is just that, how soon could that be? You cannot control things like this. If you have not meet the suitable guy, how will you get a boyfriend? Like we all know, nobody knows when we will die. We could die the very next day. At that point, are you going to regret for not having a boyfriend? Fine, you might get one, and then die. Will you then regret that you did not get married and have children? Even if you were lucky enough to get a boyfriend, marry and get kids, you will then regret for not being able to live and have grandchildren. The law just goes on. Even if God decides to give you plenty of years to live, and go through the whole process and even get grandchildren, you will regret for foregoing choices which you did not choose last time. To make things simple, you will regret no matter when you die. Since you will regret anyway, then why don't you live life the fullest and just enjoy it? Why want to know bother yourself with regrets?


Anita, May you rest in peace.

Dream

Yes, Dad came back from Pangkor already. July 27 itself! Ok, no presents for me at all. Dad bought anchovies, supposedly to be very famous in Pangkor. I do not like anchovies!!!

Gosh, I had the weirdest dream today!!! Kah Jun was evil enough to laugh at me the whole time. But I got to admit that it is a funny dream la. Haha. I am still wondering why did I dream of the big "lightbulb"??? So unrelated. This dream is too random! And silly KJ ask me to go on dreaming tonight so he has more thing to laugh at. I am so speechless!!!

Yeah, going to meet Xiu Wei tomorrow for our weekly exercise. I have to help her in her assignment too. These people who took business course, I think you guys have too many assignments la. Haha. Very challenging indeed.

Last week, Xiu Wei and I was approached by this lady at McDonalds. Basically, she asked us to donate for charity. At first this lady asked me not to scold her. I did not even intend to also! Then she said minimum donation is for $10. I do not get it here... It is called DONATION. So where is the logic if there is a minimum price for us to donate? Then how could this be called donation anymore? In other words, we are forced to donate $10 and above. Do they actually know that not everyone can be so kind to donate $10. Yes, I did not make a contribution in the end. Why??? This is because I am sure that everyone of you know that not all the money actually reach to these poor people. And that makes me fed up. Something must be done to stop this!!! I wonder do I have the ability to do so?

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEW PENG!!!

Hoping

Daddy will be coming back today! Few more hours to go, I just cannot wait to see him. Yeah, I know you all must be wondering why am I so happy. Daddy went Pangkor yesterday and I did not have the chance to goodbye because I could not wake up. And that is because I slept only at 6am!!! Gosh, I should have stayed up for another hour so that I could bid him goodbye.

Owh, he is coming back anyway. He did a few things very different this week. My parents are busy people who works more than 12 hours a day. Yes, I am not joking! Did I mention they are not even the boss the company. Yeah, parents are working for some people who does not seem to be appreciating workers like them. All I could say is, they are STUPID! Anyway, daddy called on Friday, during lunch time to ask me out for lunch. How sweet! He came down all the way despite having lots of work just to have lunch with me. Thumbs up for him! Even though it was a simple meal, I could not help feeling happy. Thanks daddy!!! I hope there will be lots of souvenirs for me, from Pangkor. Hoping and hoping...

To Call or Not To Call

Yes, the question of the day for me is "to call or not to call". I did mentioned about the things I have been going through lately in my previous entry. Well, the person did send me a message today, asking funny questions and so called expressing thoughts. As I replied this person, I was laughing deep in me. Laughing, what a jerk this person could be. Or perhaps stupid for not even understanding the words that I typed. I must say that I am not laughing at this person because this person somehow has bad english, I do not look down on people just because of this reasons.

As the saying goes, "Patience is virtue". Well, patience has its limits too, and my patience has already reached its limit. I am about to explode at this very instance. I was said to be the one who likes to avoid matters and would not face the fact. Well, I am not. As usual, I have always tried to set things rights. Making things clear, crystal clear. However, I received an answer which stated " I need to sleep right now. So, good night". These words were sent to me right after I said " Fine... If you want to talk, talk. Lets settle things clear once and for all". Looks who is the one who has been avoiding? Is it still me?

Well, the person did say that the person's childish and stupid attitude would stopped right now. However, I am asked to promise that I will message the person whenever I am sad or boring. How smart! So the person now will stop texting me instead, I would be the one texting? - Total crap! I will never ever do that. Come on, even when I am bored or sad, the person's name will not even come across my mind!

After all that, I have been doing some thinking. I thought maybe I should give that person a call later at night to set things straight instead of wishing that the person would stop texting me. Should I??? Is that a wise thing to do or would I gain more trouble instead?

While I am typing this entry in my room, I so happened to look at the clock and the time right now is 2.36am. Oh well, that means that Tzy Chyi will be leaving in about 4hours time. Time flies, real fast!!! Just wanna let her know, the remainining five of us are wishing her all the best in everything she does. Do not forget us and we cherished every single moment she spent with us. Gosh, that reminds me that she has been my best friend for 11 years already. Last but not least, Sayonara!

Remember to keep in touch with us and let us know when you have finally settled down in Singapore. We will miss you. And I have started counting down. - 5months to go!

Thoughts of the Day

As I am sitting down here, typing this entry, Siew Peng would be in Queensland, Australia. She is currently staying in a hotel, hoping to search a perfect place as her home in Australia before deciding whether to stay in a hostel or to rent a room.

I remembered I just sent Fook Rong off not long ago. And here today, I am again blogging about another friend's departure. Seeing them leaving reminds me that time flies real fast. It happens every moment we blink our eyes. Just 4days ago, I was having dinner with Siew Peng, David and Ansyn. I even went for a drink with Siew Peng and David that night at Skybar. Remembering how much we talked about each other's stuff. The things we talked, came out randomly but I know, three of us enjoyed it a lot. Soon, I will be seeing another friend leaving for Singapore for studies. Actually, less than 7days left. In September, another two will be leaving. What a sad year could it be!

Perhaps having friends leaving, I could not deny that my mood was affected. Things do not seem to be right. I realised I need someone to talk to. But wait, the thing that is annoying me much affected me the most. I did talked about it that night, but no solution could be found. It has been going on for a very looooooooongggggggggg time. My good friends know what it is about. And do not even think of asking me whom am I referring to because no answers would be given by me. I have been asking myself, is the problem actually with me? I do not understand why some people just do not get what I have been trying to tell them. Believe me, I have even talked harshly towards this person. I have even tried to make this person hate me, but it did not worked? I wonder why? Was my acting skills THAT bad until the person could realise? or was it because the person has the thickest skin ever? Even thicker than leather?

Besides that, I even tried to talk to this person nicely. Explaining why things are not going the way the person wanted. I made my stand and this person clearly knows that I am firm with my stand and decisions made by me would never ever changed. How do I get rid this kind of people. Honestly, I did not even feel a single bit of sorry for talking so harshly because I feel that that person deserves it a lot! Well, I guess this person has an impression that nothing could get out of the way this person wanted. I am sorry to say, not everything will go the way you wanted. Maybe it did in your life, but I would prove you wrong.

Gosh, I felt relieved after letting it all out right now. Of course, there are still lots more not being revealed but I felt better. That is all that I need. Tomorrow would be a better day than today.

Lastly, ALL THE BEST TO SIEW PENG!!!


I will miss ya!

Quote: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present!

Yup, got it from Kungfu Panda. Love it!

Oh ya, before I forget, Anybody wants to adopt kittens??? Do tell me ASAP!!!

Updates!

I know my friends waited for this post a long time ago. So here it is right now. I have decided to sit still and blog blog blog. Basically, we planned so hard for Tzy Chyi's birthday, hoping to give her a memorable birthday since she is leaving for Singapore pretty soon... 7 days left, I guess.

Tzy Chyi decided to celebrate at the Ship since it is nearer to our place. Everyone had a hard time thinking what to buy for her. Xiu Wei eventually gave up and asked the birthday girl what she needs. So there was this day when I went to Mid Valley with Xiu Wei. Wrote that in my previous entry. Luckily, I managed to get a small gift to for Tzy Chyi or else my whole outing would have been pointless. Somehow, the thing I bought would allow her to hang her necklace and earrings. So, basically it has to do with hanging. Haha. Though it was a small gift, I chose it for quite some time and I guess Xiu Wei was pretty fed up with me for being so fussy. Haha.

Then went out again with Ai Di to shop for the gift once more. This time, I managed to buy a lamp. Hoping that she could use that for studies or something. It took us hours before I get to buy the gift. Ai Di nagged me a lot. Haha. Besides that, we went surveying at The Ship, and booked seats for the night. At least, things got done!

On 28/6, 6 of us finally had the time to meet up! That is something we could not do often. It is always 5 or less but hardly 6! Anyway, we went shopping around Times Square to kill time and we had to take a monorail back to Sungei Wang though it is just opposite because it rained!!! Dinner was at The Ship as mentioned earlier.



Our food for the night

We all enjoyed our food a lot and then proceeded to eating cake! Having nice food non stop.


B'day cake



Tzy Chyi with flowers and a penquin



Wishing



Hope her wishes will come true



Sw decided it's payback time for TC since Sw has to do that before




The staffs in The Ship were actually good by providing us the birthday song and they even sang along! Besides that, the penquin Tzy Chyi had was a gift from them. One of them helped us to take our group photos. It turned out that he is a lousy photographer. Only one out of three photos could be considered as ok.


Tzy Chyi and See Wan



Ai Di and Tzy Chyi



Poi Phoon and Tzy Chyi



Group Pic



Tzy Chyi and Xiu Wei



Tzy Chyi and Krystle

Our dinner ended pretty early. And of course, we continued taking photos while waiting for the bill as well as before we left The Ship!

Dearest Panda and I



Dearest Ai Di and I



Final pic of Awesome 6


The day ends with this...


Outside The Ship

A Day in MidValley

Went to college today to meet Xiu Wei. Before that, decided to stop by at Roti Man to get some buns for her since she was complaining for hunger. I saw a classmate and spoke to her about the post-mortem of the exams. Finally, Xiu Wei rang me and the conversation ended at that point of time.

We then went to search books for her assignment. Thank GOD we managed to find a few books. Hope I did help her in some way... Well, I guess she is surely having a hard time doing her assignment without knowing anything about it. Perhaps lack of research. But she did say even if she did her research, she might never understand a single thing. So that leads to a question, how is she going to sit for her exams??? Besides that, I experienced the "shock of the day". I did not expect to see that person though. At the end of the day, felt that it was shocking yet interesting.

Did some shopping in Mid Valley today. Spent a fortune even though I did not buy much. Burnt holes in my pockets. Got to start saving for future plans. Managed to get TC a gift. Hope she will like it. I personally like the gift. Can't wait for Saturday to come. Right now, my toes hurt!!! Any idea how should I reduce the pain?

Promised XW that I would post this pictures up...

What do u expect from a person who parks his car like this???


A note which states...



This leads to... Vandalism. The owner of the car should not feel mad when someone eventually decides to "decorate" or do something to his car!